Wednesday, September 29, 2010
We're alive!
We're here and we're still alive. We are in the middle of working, finishing clinic, graduating, packing and moving. I'll probably be offline for a while (again-sorry) but next time we'll have pictures of our new home up.
Trust God and believe in good things to come
After much searching and prayer Nic and I have found a place to live. We are moving to Nampa. Gasp! I know. The one place I did NOT want to move to turns out to be the one place where the Lord needs us.
As soon as we gave notice to our lender of our move out date Nic and I were constantly on craigslist looking for rentals. Driving around the areas we wanted to be, looking for places to rent and there was hardly anything. And if we did find something it was snatched in a second. We did finally find a property in our subdivision and checked it out.
It was a completely different style and way smaller, but we liked it. The only bad thing was the pet deposit-it was insane! I know, I know. Some of you are saying "just get rid of your cats" but after having to step away from our house, the last thing I wanted to do was get rid of my cats (only a pet/animal lover could truly understand this pain). We moved on to the next property. Another house in our subdivision. A little out of our price range but I figured we could make it work. We viewed it and fell in love and there was no additional pet deposit. We filled out an application and went on our merry way. I was filled with some anxiety, but I knew it would be okay. We could make it work. I called the owner the next day because we did have some more questions and we never heard back from her. Frustrated, we continued our search.
After the second disappointment and the deadline looming overhead, I really started becoming frustrated and stressed out. One day while I was looking on craigslist, Nampa came to mind and I quickly pushed the thought to the side. I did NOT want to live out there and I KNEW I would not be happy out there. And I KNEW with the additional distance we wouldn't be able to afford the gas. We found a 3rd property to look at. COMPLETE disappointment. Continued our search. The 4th property seemed like it would be a winner. Went to look at it and it was cute. A lot smaller but it would work for us. The owners were friendly, it was in our price range, and there wasn't an insane pet deposit. It would be sufficient. We filled out an application talked some more with the owners and left. But there was something unsettling in me. Though I knew the deadline was close, I felt as if we were rushing into this house. I shared my feelings about the house with Nic to see if he felt the same but he didn't. I then shared with him the thoughts of Nampa. I told him "I don't know if it keeps coming to mind because I know we can have the size of home that we want for cheaper than Boise or if it's where we're supposed to be." He didn't know either but agreed we could rent a bigger house out there for cheap.
I sat on it for a day and figured what the heck, we might as well just look to see what's out there. Mind you, I did this with 100% attitude. I was not happy about even searching for something in Nampa. Nic got an appointment set up on Sunday and we headed out. The whole drive out I was not a happy camper and mumbled under my breath. A lot. I decided I should say a prayer. As I bowed my head, the sticky note I had kept in my car for the last two weeks caught my attention: "Trust God and believe in good things to come." I told Heavenly Father that I wanted to trust Him. That we wanted to be where He needs us to be. I prayed that if this house was to be where we needed to be that He would give us those comforting feelings. We went inside and it was BEAUTIFUL! I could see us living there. We talked with the property manager and filled out an application. No thoughts or worries of "how are we going to make this work?" crept into my mind. I was at peace. Nic and I got in the car to head back home and he asked me how I felt. I told him that it just felt right and I wasn't filled with any anxieties or worries. At that moment, it felt as if someone was reaching out to me and saying "Thank you. Thank you for trusting me."
This whole journey of finding a place to live has truly been a test of faith and trust for me. At one point I prayed saying: "I know I need to go through this to learn more patience and trust but if you can help speed this up, that would be wonderful." I felt the Lord chuckle. So often in our lives it's easier to do things our way. It's the natural man in us. But how often when we do things our way is the journey filled with bumpy roads and more stress and frustration. All we have to do is put our trust in Him. The Lord will guide us. He will not lead us astray. Though the journey may still be bumpy we know that the Lord is watching us over us.
As soon as we gave notice to our lender of our move out date Nic and I were constantly on craigslist looking for rentals. Driving around the areas we wanted to be, looking for places to rent and there was hardly anything. And if we did find something it was snatched in a second. We did finally find a property in our subdivision and checked it out.
It was a completely different style and way smaller, but we liked it. The only bad thing was the pet deposit-it was insane! I know, I know. Some of you are saying "just get rid of your cats" but after having to step away from our house, the last thing I wanted to do was get rid of my cats (only a pet/animal lover could truly understand this pain). We moved on to the next property. Another house in our subdivision. A little out of our price range but I figured we could make it work. We viewed it and fell in love and there was no additional pet deposit. We filled out an application and went on our merry way. I was filled with some anxiety, but I knew it would be okay. We could make it work. I called the owner the next day because we did have some more questions and we never heard back from her. Frustrated, we continued our search.
After the second disappointment and the deadline looming overhead, I really started becoming frustrated and stressed out. One day while I was looking on craigslist, Nampa came to mind and I quickly pushed the thought to the side. I did NOT want to live out there and I KNEW I would not be happy out there. And I KNEW with the additional distance we wouldn't be able to afford the gas. We found a 3rd property to look at. COMPLETE disappointment. Continued our search. The 4th property seemed like it would be a winner. Went to look at it and it was cute. A lot smaller but it would work for us. The owners were friendly, it was in our price range, and there wasn't an insane pet deposit. It would be sufficient. We filled out an application talked some more with the owners and left. But there was something unsettling in me. Though I knew the deadline was close, I felt as if we were rushing into this house. I shared my feelings about the house with Nic to see if he felt the same but he didn't. I then shared with him the thoughts of Nampa. I told him "I don't know if it keeps coming to mind because I know we can have the size of home that we want for cheaper than Boise or if it's where we're supposed to be." He didn't know either but agreed we could rent a bigger house out there for cheap.
I sat on it for a day and figured what the heck, we might as well just look to see what's out there. Mind you, I did this with 100% attitude. I was not happy about even searching for something in Nampa. Nic got an appointment set up on Sunday and we headed out. The whole drive out I was not a happy camper and mumbled under my breath. A lot. I decided I should say a prayer. As I bowed my head, the sticky note I had kept in my car for the last two weeks caught my attention: "Trust God and believe in good things to come." I told Heavenly Father that I wanted to trust Him. That we wanted to be where He needs us to be. I prayed that if this house was to be where we needed to be that He would give us those comforting feelings. We went inside and it was BEAUTIFUL! I could see us living there. We talked with the property manager and filled out an application. No thoughts or worries of "how are we going to make this work?" crept into my mind. I was at peace. Nic and I got in the car to head back home and he asked me how I felt. I told him that it just felt right and I wasn't filled with any anxieties or worries. At that moment, it felt as if someone was reaching out to me and saying "Thank you. Thank you for trusting me."
This whole journey of finding a place to live has truly been a test of faith and trust for me. At one point I prayed saying: "I know I need to go through this to learn more patience and trust but if you can help speed this up, that would be wonderful." I felt the Lord chuckle. So often in our lives it's easier to do things our way. It's the natural man in us. But how often when we do things our way is the journey filled with bumpy roads and more stress and frustration. All we have to do is put our trust in Him. The Lord will guide us. He will not lead us astray. Though the journey may still be bumpy we know that the Lord is watching us over us.
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